Saturday 21 January 2012

Love Life

Let's call this the story of the untroubled times. Let's imagine a boy, late teens, just out of school, fresh into college. For the sake of anonymity lets just call him VT, hmmm? He is living the good life, enjoying every bit of college and the myriad possibilities of fun and intoxication it promises. Exploring life, and as yet unspoilt by the harsh realities of having to work for a living.

This boy, then, one beautiful August morning sees this girl. Unassuming, confident, slightly aloof. And beautiful. Hmm, he is intrigued. Distracted even. He has the next party to plan, video games to play, books to read, friends to meet, and study if need be; in short, no time for frivolities and yet... he is drawn to the girl. Yes, he is most definitely intrigued. He tries to strike a conversation but our boy is kind of shy too. I say 'kind of', because he does manage to speak to her. It takes a few days but speak to her, he does. They strike up an easy friendship.

The girl - fun loving, charming, intelligent, sometimes careful to the point of extremely cautionary, and yet at other times playful and teasing soon opens up to him. With emotional attraction comes physical attraction and more often than not, vice versa. Come September and he is in love. The big 'L'.
The boy thought he knew everything about girls and relationships. She proved him wrong. There were more surprises in a day with her than an entire month with most people. She showed him things he didn't think were possible. The passion they shared was at a height unparalleled hence, and unmatched since.

Yet, one day the relationship ended as abruptly as it had started. For years he pines for the same emotional and physical torrent he went through - stumbling from one relationship to another, sometimes surprised, but mostly disappointed. Other relationships and priorities took his time and attention now. Yet he knew that one day she will come back, something will bring you people back together.

It happened. There were a few hiccups in the beginning, and slight moments of embarrassment, but slowly it happened. The passion is unbelievable, the emotional storm even greater. This is what he was missing for so many days! Such long years had he waited for this to happen! The conversations, the long drives, the frantic moments of passion and the quiet, tender moments of love - everything is so much better this time. But without so much as a preamble, this time too comes at an end. He is not as heartbroken as the first time round, but the abruptness of it all does leave a slight sour taste in his mouth. Yet he knows that he will look back at these times as one of the best he has ever had.

Sunday 15 January 2012

Moments continued

Love is of immense possibilities, immense intrigue. Everyday you find something new, some new permutations and combinations. "I think everybody is naughty". No person can be completely pious and clean in his heart and all that. If i see a pretty woman, I will definitely appreciate her, not that i would want to sleep with her. Being naughty keeps everything alive-you as a person, in your relationship with your partner...:P. It's not a question of balance. Because i really love and it's my lifeline, it's the ground where i can experiment with myself it's my need to take out time. love is not a compromise at all.


            Love is not about looking for conventional looks and running around trees kind of stupidity. In love you do your own thing, not affected by what the other one does. Love is a challenge which gives me scope to dig more into myself and know my limitations as a human-being. Something should be there to make me feel inadequate. Otherwise, you get stereotyped. I hate  when people say "Yeh admi acha kartha hai, isey yehi karne do". i.e. I hate Branding.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        I need someone who excites and unnerves me. I must be insecure to the extent that i should feel I'll make a fool of myself. Even if i fail in that, I shall be enriched. When in the present world love doesn't happen it is made.